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darling it's better down where it's wetter

It's been a day, it's been a day, it's been a whole damn day -- as near as it's possible to tell in this soggy excuse for a city. It's been a day since he killed Fontaine. And Jack is no closer to getting out. He's still down here. He did everything he was supposed to do and he's still down here.

All he's found is locked-down bathyspheres. Broken submarines. Even the goddamn boats are out of service. Where's Tenenbaum? Where's his fucking rescue?

Jack stares about into the greenish gloom, checks the ammo in his pistol, and then kicks and yanks off the rusting panel of a vending machine. His hands are soon full of little wires and pipes. A few seconds later, he straightens up with a grunt, and the machine gives him a tidy discount on a couple glowing hypos of EVE.

With his visit extended indefinitely, he's begun to wonder how many of them are left.

Now arbitrarily divided into chapters!
Part One: A Scene at the Rapture Adoption Agency ~or~ You Found [Pot of Ham]!
Part Two: Come On-A My House, I'm Gonna Give-A You Candy ~or~ Sinclair? More Like Sin Pantalones!
Part Three: Dream Sequences are a Fresh New Concept in Fiction ~or~ It's My Existential Trauma and I'll Cry if I Want To
Part Four: Southern Education Jokes ~or~ Engineer, Engifar, Engiwherever You Are ~or~ The Grave Escape
Part Five: Golfing Accident Memoirs ~or~ Mom... Dad... I'm Immortal ~or~ How To Make Friends And Immolate People
Part Six: Is It A Pie? Is It A Plane?? ~or~ Two's Company, Three's a Row
Part Seven: Escort Missions! In Rapture! Council's In An Uproar ~or~ Bioshock: Cheesecake Edition
Part Eight: Bread, Milk, BATTLE! ~or~ Pleasant Conversations, How They Bore Me
Part Nine: Choices, Schmoices ~or~ Baby's First Moral Philosophy ~or~ Go Away I Want To Take A Damn Bath
Part Ten: A Man Snoozes; A Slave Delays ~or~ The Four Second Rule Applies To Drugs
Part Eleven: A Hearty Meal ~or~ Skeletons In The-- That's Not A Closet
Part Twelve: We All Live in a Secret Submarine ~or~ Plasmids: Not Even Once
Part Thirteen: Paging Dr Tenenbaum To Surgery ~or~ Bribery And Deduction
Part Fourteen: The Prodigal Son Returns

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Sure, but even if the damage doesn't go further, it's already been done:

"You'll still know," he says miserably.

"I don't know what to do about that," Sinclair frowns. "...I'm sorry."

Jack doesn't reply for several moments, but when he does:

"I burned it all. So you can't -- look any more."

He's trying to sound forceful and assertive, though the miserable hiccup in his voice kind of ruins the effect.

...Not that that will change anything, but if it makes Jack feel better, okay.

Sinclair nods in agreement. "And neither can anyone else. I suppose you might consider it at least somewhat contained," he offers with a small smile. It can't do any more damage than it already has.

Although he's not sure what Jack expects him to do with it. The phrase doesn't work anymore, and the memories are painful but the fact that Sinclair knows isn't going to really change anything.

Jack has calmed down enough to stop being so violently angry, but not enough to stop crying. He sniffles quietly and Sinclair can almost hear Jack internally chiding himself for it. He wants to stop, but he can't. And it's always a little hard to watch a grown man cry.

"What are you worried about, son?" Sinclair asks, making sure to keep his tone gentle. Maybe if he can pinpoint that, he can help Jack pull himself together and they can keep looking for the code for the sub bay.

That is if Jack still plans on working with him.

...That would be. Inconvenient.

Well, that's a question with an easy enough answer. Consolidating that answer into something succinct, however, is another matter.

Also it's hard to be eloquent at this stage of crying, when you've not quite stopped, because you risk unbottling yourself and going right back into sobs. Especially if you say the wrong thing.

Nevertheless, Jack manages:

"Now you know I'm -- nothing." Any number of the phrases that've been flung at him come to mind. "A... h-half-baked science experiment."

He's staring really, really hard at the floor. And his voice is harsh.

Well that one tugs at Sinclair's stone cold heart.

He shakes his head again, this time with a little more purpose.

"Hey, kid," he says, and crouches down by Jack's chair to ensure eye contact. "Listen to me. Are you listening?"

Eye contact is quickly and uncomfortably broken, but Jack nods once.

Sinclair sighs, choosing his words.

"Nobody gets to choose where they come from. You got dealt a bad hand, it's not your fault. This game was rigged against you, sport, and there wasn't a damn thing you were supposed to be able to do about that."

He lets it sink in for just a second, trying to regain that eye contact, smiling.

"But you did. They thought they were gonna tell you who you were supposed to be, what you were supposed to do, but they miscalculated. They underestimated you, and they paid that balance. Now, I've met people who came from dirt, worked harder than they ever thought they could and came out on top. But kid," he says with a small laugh, "you were conditioned to be nothing more than a tool, something somebody else could use to get what they wanted. And you came out of it your own person. I don't know about you, but nobody can tell me that's nothing."

Jack's jaw tightens through that whole nothing more than a tool part, because wow, Sinclair, way to tell it like it is. But he listens. He listens to all of it, with growing... well, honestly, growing astonishment.

He hasn't thought about that angle a whole lot, and he certainly didn't expect to hear it said to him. And it's difficult to buy, especially right off the bat -- but if Sinclair really believes it, that's got to be worth something.

God, but he wishes Sinclair was right.

"I didn't, though," he says; and he's finally forced the crying away but the sound of it is still heavy on his voice. "I didn't. I don't know how to -- decide right. I'm not... quick enough, I can't make things happen, I... just do what I'm told." Didn't Fontaine say as much, and a lot less nicely? Didn't Tenenbaum obviously know it? "I just--" He says the next word like it's something utterly poisonous. "--obey."

He's still talking to the floor, by the way, for what may be the longest speech of his life so far.

Sinclair laughs again, a little more in earnest.

"I don't think anybody knows how decide right. Every choice is a gamble, and that goes for everybody. Thinking your choices through, that's not a fault. Some folks don't think about them at all, they just go through life thinking every gut instinct's gotta be the right one. And sometimes it is, but I know for my part...there's a lot I wished I would've taken the time to think through."

Including but not limited to most of the events that led him to Rapture, and almost all of the events afterwards. It's been a lottery from the get go, and in a lot of ways he couldn't have possibly seen any of this coming. In other ways, though, he might have had the foresight to know that this was never going to work out in the long run. Maybe he did know, maybe he just thought he'd always have an exit strategy.

So much for that.

"Come on, kid, look at me. I've seen you make a good plenty of your own decisions. You chose to start saving those little girls, didn't you? You chose to work with me, you chose to keep on working with me. ...And I hope you're going to choose to work with me still, but it's your choice, chief."

It's time to be surprised again. It's hard to imagine all-knowing Sinclair having to regret the choices he's made.

...But then again he's down here in Rapture, so there was at least one major fuck-up somewhere along the line.

Jack does finally meet Sinclair's eyes. By now he looks, more than anything else, dog tired. Eyes red and shadowed, face blotchy from the tears. Certainly too tired to carry on arguing. I'd say he's just worried himself into exhaustion, but I'm sure we haven't forgotten the other, more trembly factor that's also in play here.

"I do want to, still."

He kind of wants to say no he doesn't, just to prove that he could, but even Jack has enough foresight to know that that wouldn't be worth it. So yep, he's still in. Unless and until Sinclair kicks him off the team, or starts treating him as a tool. Either or both of which Jack was expecting to happen like ten minutes ago, so honestly the question is vaguely welcome.

That is one hell of a relief. It's not that Sinclair thinks he'd never get out without Jack, he had some semblance of a plan before they met, but it would be one hell of a lot harder to do.

"I'm glad to hear you say that," he says with a smile, rising to his feet again. "What do you say we find that code and take a look at our new submarine?"

You know. If the code wasn't burned along with all the other stuff Jack was so terrified of Sinclair discovering.

It's okay, I don't think quest items are destructible.

"Yeah." Not a whole truckload of boundless enthusiasm, but some relief that he doesn't have to talk about difficult things any more.

"I searched through the desk here pretty well, didn't find anything. You might have some better luck."

Meanwhile there's a bookshelf over there that he could probably look through all day long and then maybe a couple days after that. ...That'll be a last resort.

"I'm gonna have another look around in here. Holler if you find anything."

He nods. Then catches himself and stops nodding. Then goes ahead and finishes the nod, because come on, Jack, don't be oversensitive.

"Got a tonic for that," he mumbles, in support of his desk-searching credentials.

The marvels of splicing. Sometimes the conveniences it allows for are pretty tempting, but it only takes a stroll through any given hallway in Rapture to make your mind up for you in a heartbeat.

Speaking of which, Sinclair can't imagine Jack is holding up too well over there, having not spliced properly all day long. He's keeping himself together well enough, but it's only a matter of time before it starts to really show. And there's that urgent need to talk to Doctor Tenenbaum, but there's nothing he can do about that right now. He forces it back down.

The other side of the room is...not likely to have anything with a code. It's mostly furniture, there are a couple pictures which Sinclair takes his time inspecting, but mostly he knows he's putting off the inevitable bookshelf search.

A few minutes longer of staring at a portrait of Andrew Ryan, checking behind it, examining the entire frame, and Sinclair gives up.

He drags himself back over to the bookshelf and sighs. This could take a while.

Jack does make a show of putting in an effort, but his heart is about as in it as the code is in the drawers. He spends more time staring blankly into them than searching them, and even more time than that trying not to look at Ryan's body, which is more prominent in the room than it has any right to be.

And honestly it shouldn't be like that, because he has to find the code to get them out and where on earth has his get-up-and-go got up and gone to?

Maybe it's that he's hungry. He makes a somewhat noisy pit-stop at the nearest trash can.

And comes up with a crumpled bit of paper, torn out of a planner, four digits written on it.

"...Mister Sinclair?"

Sinclair has pulled the first book out of the shelf and is sullenly thumbing through it when Jack speaks up.

"Hm?" he says without looking up.

"I found something," he says with cautious optimism.

The book goes back on the shelf in about .01 seconds flat and Sinclair is at Jack's side to examine his find.

Four digits.

6225.

"...Where'd you find this?"

"In the trashcan," says Jack, pointing a finger at the offending receptacle.

And there were no cakes at all, by the way.

Well that's. An odd place for something so important.

"Can't hurt to try," Sinclair shrugs, stepping back and motioning for Jack to lead the way. He follows behind him, stepping over Ryan's corpse as they exit the room.

Thanks for nothing, asshole.

Jack straight up treads on Ryan's hand to show how much he doesn't give a shit (plot twist: he does).

He does a rote glance about for splicers as they leave the office, but the hallway and the rooms beneath it are silent. Nobody's there to interrupt them as they make their way to the control panel for the moment of truth.

A glance at the paper, and then Jack taps the number into the control panel, not expecting very much.

And then the whole wall begins to move.

The wall is moving. It's moving.

It splits and slides apart, not very far, but far enough to fit both Jack and Sinclair in side by side.

And it's open there in front of them. The wall has opened. The wall has moved away and it's open and there's a room behind it and this is it.

This is it.

The submarine sits solidly by a short boardwalk like it was waiting for them.

Sinclair lets out a joyous laugh and walks into the new room spreading his arms and turning back around to look at Jack.

"Kid! We found it! We found our sub!"

He laughs again and turns back around, soaking in the sight before him.

"...We found our way out."

Jack's enthusiasm is a bit more cautious and subdued, a little more slow in coming. He's staring at the sub, wondering if after all this it can really get them out of danger, whether it's so much better that they won't get shot down again.

But Sinclair certainly seems to think it is. And Jack sure would like to believe the things that Sinclair says.

So a smile breaks like morning across his face. Fetch quest successfully completed.

"Our way out," he repeats, and hears himself sounding hopeful.

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